Thoughts on Misery & Meditation..

                    

 

           Sometimes I meditate for 2-3 hours straight and sometimes for a minute. Sitting straight, maintaining slow breathing.. I do. But do I really just concentrate on my breathing for such long time without getting any thoughts? No. During initial practices I tried to concentrate on my breathing but I failed every single time. Eventually I realized it is not possible for me to get over the tides of thoughts which hit me one after the other. As I am enjoying meditation irrespective of whether I am following definition of it by gurus or not, I continued my way, which is to use that silence to think about how the life is going, understanding root cause(s) of current problems and what can be done to set myself free and happy.

 

           We feel low, incapable, demotivated and stressed sometimes. We forget our capabilities. It happens to me several times. Not able to understand the purpose of living the way it is. So, I meditate. It all starts by thinking what caused those feelings.. they may be hurt, anger or even depression. It ends with the same answer every single time. Desire it is.

 

            Living in this society and having no desires is not possible. But knowing "the cause of this sadness is that particular desire of mine" is where it starts to settle down. Once we understand and tell our mind that it is a small thing to cry over, it listens. Because many of times misery is caused by a thought/action from a small desire.

            So once we know the cause, next step is to Question. It really clears ambiguity in our thought process. But should we go smooth on self while questioning? No, definitely not. Is it necessary? Why is it necessary? What can be done otherwise? Who can question if I have not achieved something? Why should I bother about others? Who is the sufferer? ...

    

       With all this questions posed our mind starts to get clarity over the situation and consequences. It becomes calm. And one day we will understand, like the cause of misery, it's solution is also, Simple.